All I've got to give to you.

Sometimes, I wonder, is it my fault.

Back then, we were kids, running, screaming around, up and down at our grandparents house, pretending we are some sort of superheroes.

Back then, we were adolescents, enjoying the happy moments together, sharing our sorrows to each other, we were so happily together, even all of our close friends were envious of our relationship. They said we were meant to be together.

Back then, do you actually know that , how much I look up to you? How I was always chasing after you...eager to follow your footsteps. Does it even occur to you now, what I did, was to impress you? For you to accept me as a friend at the very least.

A wall started to build up between us as we both reached the age of rebel. I tried to breach those wall, but you push me even further. I stop trying, I stop trying to please you since then. And I think,I really think, that's when my resentment grew, little by little.

Until that very day, I couldn't stand it any longer. Couldn't stand the way you always ,always try to be that stingy, even when you're with me. Couldn't stand the way you tried to get me. Couldn't stand the way you have just given up on me like that. Do you even realize the way you treated me all the while? I doubt you are still confused. How I wish I have the courage to tell you all by myself. I'm just a timid.

Just so you know, just as respect, love, is a two way thing. You said I didn't care about this or that. Weren't you the same? Determine to not be like you, I was closer with my friends than I ever I was with you.

Nonetheless, no matter how many times, history repeated; no matter how many times, a clock is turn backwards, I believe nothing would or could have changed.

It's been one year. It's been one whole year since we last met.
Is it my fault that things between us are as they are now? I wish we were like friends still. We could laugh and joke and tease like how it used to be when we were both young. Why didn't I bother to just say a 'sorry' to you? I hate myself for losing you.

You only see what I choose to show, but there is a lot that you don't know.
I regret a lot because I knew just how wrong they were to do.
It was really stupid and now I suffer..
From all the things I used to cover,
I let it out 'cause I thought it was right.
But all it gave me was a lot of fright...
Some people know and others don't..
All the other people always won't..

And regrettably, here, I shall end , knowing you would never came across this post ( or maybe not), accepting the fact that between us, things, would never change.

I will not be changing too.

I miss you still.

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How many times do we say something that we immediately realized was not the right thing to say?
how many times do we look back on an event and think, if only I had....
how many times do we do something that we wish hadn't done?

I know I can't change what has been said. I can't change a past event. Nor can I change what has been done.

If there is only one thing about which I have regrets on, that would be you.

I shall call it regret, sorrow and repentance.

Nevertheless, I guess I shall move on with my life, and so do you. Let's forget about regret, and focus. Focus on today, not on the past. Focus on what we can do, rather that what we didn't do.

The only thing to regret is living in the past. And I am so not gonna live in the past starting from this moment.
The only thing to feel sorrow for is not living each day to the fullest.And I am pretty sure I will live my life to the fullest.
The only thing to do to repent is to sincerely say, I'm sorry. And I'm truly very sorry to you. I don't want to live my life feeling regret of not telling you.

Let's both you and me, live our life so tomorrow we won't regret of today, alright?

I believe we can do it (: