Friday, January 11, 2013


Unscripted emotions were portrayed
tears fall like rain now
my mind feels lost, and my heart does too
confusion tapping at the brain
questions unanswered
feelings left worn
was it even love at all?

I remember it was quite a bad day.

I cried for hours and hours.

this is overwhelming.

 I really don't know what to do besides trying to be self-reliant.


Things were a little messy and confused the past few months.

 Even though I am sure to be righteous, I'm really sick of the dreadful row I had to go through everyday and hence, I decided to give way. Thanks to the few of you who actually shown your concern and took the effort of cheering me up although you guys were clueless about what had happened. Things are better left unsaid at times so I hope you understand. Anyhow, you guys did a great job at making me smile and I sincerely appreciate what you all have done. Thank you! :D

I feel a whole lot better now. Ironic as it is, I'm pretty happy with my life now although I'm not used to the changes yet. Well, it's just few weeks away from going home. I shouldn't be bothered too much.

then again, what if the worse happens?

what should I do then?

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I'm not going to let it get to me.

Breaking up is never fun. The end of a relationship usually means the beginning of a period of mourning and healing for both people. Especially to the person being broken up with, they definitely have to adjust their feelings, first to being rejected and second to life without somebody they still care for. I know it is never easy to mend a broken heart but I believe you will get through it and before you know it, you'll be just fine.

I really don't want to see you as an unhappy person due to the break-up and stuffs.  Look at me, I have managed to pull myself together in a short time span and regain my happiness. And so can you (:

Good luck! We are always here for you, my dearest brother! Be strong! 

"I've learned that some broken things stay broken, and I've learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you."

Thursday, November 10, 2011

There's a little bit of you in everything.

We all carry these things inside us that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors, they drown us out at sea.

picture credited to Amaris

"We laughed and laughed, together and separately, out loud and silently, we were determined to ignore whatever needed to be ignored, to build a new world from nothing if nothing in our world could be salvaged, it was one of the best days of my life, a day during which I lived my life and didn't think about my life at all. "

On the outside, I know I may not be the same naive kid anymore. Probably because I've been through too much too fast, but deep down, at my core, there will always be a part of me that rejects reality, that is eternally hopeful.

I hope for the best.

P/S: I feel so beautiful today.Only God knows why.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

I see them coming from afar.

Hello,dear readers! *I doubt there is any though*

 I know it's been awhile since I last written anything. And I'm back for good now.

 So, did you miss me?

I missed everything here,like seriously. I missed blogging. I missed those awesome people I met in blogsphere. I missed expressing my feelings in this little space of mine. I missed....

So yeah. The start of November officially marked the end of my Second Year Semester One. How time flies. This semester has been a real tough one I would say. Interesting in a way. I got to meet new people whom I instantly get along with. They are really,really awesome! They have always been there for me no matter what happens. And I must say, it's a great pleasure knowing them.You guys are definitely one of my greatest support in life. Thank you! *hugss* you know who you're are (:

Truth be told, I had a pretty difficult time during last month. October that is. Something unpleasant has happened which I hope I will never knew about it. The whole world out of a sudden seems to be very cruel. I don't even know myself anymore. I'm so lost and helpless. I just don't know what else I can do other than  doing nothing, because everything has happened so sudden. I wish I could open up to someone who can listen to me and just be there for me. God heard me I guess and I'm so so glad to have a bunch of lovelies who were there for me all the time.I'm grateful for that (:

They says bad things will come to an end,huh. I know I will be fine. It's just a matter of time. Faith is all I need now.

"It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness."

Not anymore. I'm tired of being nice.

Till then,I promise to update as soon as possible okay. Do come back and check once in awhile,will you? (:

Saturday, May 14, 2011

and thank you for the permanent scar.

I've come to realize that no matter how hard you try to plan your life, life certainly has a plan for you all it's own x)

if only I were strong enough to say no.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

It's just too good to be true.

Greetings people! I haven't blogged in a while. I think maybe I didn't know what to say after my last post(okayy,it is probably because I was too busy with my tests and assignments), but I have had that  written for over a month now, so I wanted to make sure I made it public for you all to see. What's more, I'm having one week hols now,so I should really blog while I still can.

In case you didn't already know, I have been looking forward to getting away for weeks. And now that the Big Day has finally arrived, I'm more than elated!

so you see, I love being able to further my studies away from my hometown. In fact, I have fallen in love with the environment and the people there. They are so much more friendly, at least to me.  But, there's still something so comforting about being home.

Things were simple. They weren't east by any means. But, things were definitely a whole lot more simple. And after being away from home for almost two years now, seeing lots of other places, meeting lots of different people from all over, I've never been more thankful for my upbringing, for the simplicity that I am now.

As I headed home,
I felt refreshed.
I felt rejuvenated.
It felt good.
It just felt good to be home. <3

Whether you like it or not, this is where I grew up. It's a big part of who I am. And I am truly thankful for that.


Nothing beats home it seems.

Happy Easter Day folks! Have a great weekend!


P/S: I'm starting to miss you you youu already.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Cause I remember every word that you said.

Life takes unexpected turns, but what makes it meaningful is the path that you create by yourself, no matter where it takes you. take a risk and do something that you truly want to do now. (;

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I wish things were simple again.

 I've a sweet tooth.

 spare me candy and I'm all happy.


Greetings people!

First thing first, pardon me for the less of update of this site. 

Ahhh, how time flies, it's already the sixth weeks since I came back to the ohsodepressing Miri.  

the weariness I feel is beyond the description of words, like seriously.
I have to admit that I was pretty stressed up due to the too much tasks in hand. Believe me when I say the tasks are too heavy.
Apart from the very long-awaited tuition free week in 2 weeks time, I have 4 assignments and 2 mid-semester tests all due next and next next week. oh great. 
Life is been really hectic and stressful to the point that sometimes you just do not know how to deal with it. 
okay,so maybe I exaggerate it. but sometimes, just sometimes, things just aren't as simple as I thought they were. 
Also, I haven't been sleeping well for three consecutive days now it's as though my head and my heart are both competing against each other to offer as much pain as they could to me. 
I just do not know how am I going to withstand this any longer.

why are all the tests and assignments rushing in non-stop at the same time? ughhh, I really doubt my own capability of walking through all this this semester. 

I needed a lot of retail therapy to de-stress.

some macaroons too, perhaps?

Anyway, putting all that aside, I actually felt very much better now for I know deep down there will be someone who I can rely on! I realized that I'm starting to like my bunch of uni friends already (;  I really enjoyed talking and laughing casually with them without much thoughts in head. I just love the randomness of us. Hehh :D

Thank you for being a part of my life. 

Here's to an everlasting friendship. SMILEEEE ^3^

Nuff' said. Cheerio!

..till I blog again.

P/S: Pray hard for my mid-semester tests next week okay. I need lots and lots of luck next week! kthxbye! ;))

Friday, March 25, 2011

Letters to Juliet.

Quote of the day:

"What, and if. Those two words standing alone are basically harmless, but link them together and those two words possess great power. What if?"
-Letters To Juliet

one of my favourite scene where Claire read the letter towards the end.
 it totally made me cry, like seriously (;

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

everything happens for a reason.

People always say follow your heart, but then again,

the tough thing about following your heart is that people forget to mention that sometimes the heart takes you to places you shouldn't be. Places that are scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring. Sometimes your heart cannot take you to places that lead to happy ending. That's not even the difficult part; the difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal; you go into the unknown and once you do you can never go back. C'est la vie.

Till then.